Your a good dad for thinking and analyzing it all. There will come a time when your kids are all grown up. You will miss even the hard times then. Even as you look on ok wider at what your kids become. This is your primary function. To raise, loving, strong, empathetic guardians of democracy and fighters of oppression. If you do that, it will all be worth it. Those thinks your beed to hammer into your kids heads with love and encouragement. Otherwise you may find the kids you raised and sacrificed for become the crass, greedy, unrighteousness congs in the machine. I pray and hope it al goes well!