Very sorry to hear. I am guessing that the parish is Roman Catholic. (Excuse if wrong). If so, the collision and tricks are built into the system. Heck they rounded up the knights Templar in a surprise raid on Friday the 13th (insert year). Burned them at the stake all they could find. And the pope and the French king decided their spoils. The knights were the personal army of the Pope. He sold them down the river for a few pieces of silver and gold. Sounds like Judas Iscariot replayed!! Sorry for your mental health issues. Don’t let the ungodly actions of your rabble rouser congregants get you down. They sold you out for no good reason, do they truly deserve you! I think not!